A Quiet Pain. . .

It's been four months now since we've been on the wait list and seven months since we began the formal adoption process.  As the wait goes on, God continues to work a miracle in our hearts.    We imagine these little ones who will be joining our family...wondering if they are born yet...if they are safe....what they are going through.  And love grows inside us for these unknown littles.  By His grace, HE prepares our hearts for them.    

I've felt especially emotional lately, an achy heart, so to speak.  I couldn't quite put my finger on exactly what was going on.   *Teresa, who I met via email when researching agencies, has become a friend and mentor to me (both in homeschooling and adoption).  She explained it beautifully in her blog today, giving words to how it feels to be waiting.  (She's describing how she would walk around a field and pray for her child as they waited during the adoption process.)

"Who would this little one be? A girl, mostly likely. What would she look like? What would her story be? How would our hearts mesh together? Lap after lap I would cry out to God from the secret pain in my heart–the pain of loving and wondering and carrying her unknown heartaches and trouble. My life carried on as usual, but somewhere out there a little one would be hurting… she would become my little one. I had nothing to show for it, just a quiet ever-present pain."

Continuing to pray for His comfort and patience as we wait. . .

*Teresa and her husband planned on adopting one girl, and brought home three year old twins!  If you'd like to check out her blog and their life together, click here.